To give you a brief version of the story, I was walking in Phoenix at dusk and a man approached me and asked me for money, as had happened countless times before. When I didn’t have any to give him, he hit me and knocked me down. I called the police, and the impression I got was that the officer was not interested in pursuing the matter. Enough said about that.

For several days, I felt a heavy bitterness against the assailant - I will call him Carlos because I just feel like I have to give him a name. I was angry. I believed that I was trying to help him, and then he responded by hitting me. I can’t tell you how angry I was.

A few days ago, I decided to read his tarot, and that was an eye opening experience. I found that Carlos felt trapped in his life. He had contemplated another direction, but just didn’t know what to do. He was afraid and confused. I believe he had had anger problems throughout his life. Sadly, the outcome showed that he would probably not change.

Perhaps Carlos is on his own spiritual journey and that we crossed paths to help each other in some cosmic sense. After reading Carlos’s tarot, I felt a sense of peace about him. To be honest, I wanted to see him again and talk to him about his life.

I thought about this, and decided that I was going to try to make it happen. Because I have had a lot of success with Tarot and other means of divination, I thought I could make it happen. But that night, I channeled my spirit guide who came to me and talked through my body. He told me that I could bring Carlos back into my life if I wanted, but that it was not my role to minister to him. My guide told me that if I brought Carlos back into my life that it would hinder his progress and mine, and that of the universe. But ultimately, my spirit guide told me that the decision was mine.

I decided against trying. I knew that I had to let go of Carlos and all the bitterness I felt against him. Strangely, I feel like we have some kind of spiritual connection now, though that connection is difficult to describe. I feel a sense of kinship with Carlos, as well as pity for him. I think he has had a hard life, and I think he has a hard life ahead of him. But I hope that those of you that pray to some Higher Power will pray for him and intercede on his behalf that someone will be able to help him in a way that I cannot.

Thanks to all of you for your support during what has been a difficult time. I’m still working through my bitterness, and some days are better than others. But I can see I’m making progress. I know I’m not perfect, and I want to thank everyone who has been thinking about me during this time.