I find myself having trouble enjoying the things
that I always enjoyed or doing the things that I have always done.
And as for those activities that are not enjoyable, I find them
nearly impossible to do in such times. This is especially true of
laundry and housework, but also of doing a good job at whatever
employment I find myself at.
The purpose of this post is to tell you about
a time a few months ago
that I found myself in such a slump and what I did to get out of it.
It was December 2007, and I was not at all excited about Christmas.
I lived in Nashville, TN, where it was cold and desolate. I was
running a failing business and knew that in the coming months I
would have to reenter the standard workforce. To sum it all up,
things were not going very well.
At first, I thought I would just give up, live
homeless, and just exist until I finally died of whatever. Yes, I
was truly depressed, and I didn’t know how to get out of it. In the
past, I had done little things to get out of such feelings of
despair… or nothing sometimes. Sometimes I would just snap out of
it.
I didn’t, however, see myself snapping out of
this depression any time soon. I had to decide what life was really
worth to me and find a way to live it to the fullest. That’s when I
began playing with an idea that I had had for some time. I thought
about leaving the Nashville area and moving out west.
It was an adventure to be had. I could only
imagine what it must be like living in the desert, where it was hot,
where there were cacti, where the desolation was actually beautiful
and upbeat. In addition, there was a lot of opportunity for jobs in
the Phoenix, AZ, area, so I decided that that is where I would go.